Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Stupid Comment for the Day:

OK, after getting myself all worked up on Martin’s blog (May I call you Martin, Martin?) I’ve decided to come back here and relax a bit.

I caught myself making the stupidest comment a minute ago: Oh shit, I have to poo and I’m out of toilet paper. I don’t know why I said it that way... Maybe it’s the rebel in me battling my proper upbringing. I’m just thankful that no one else heard it.

Have you ever caught yourself making a silly comment, and are you brave enough to tell us what it is?

Sunday, June 26, 2005

My Last Will and Testament.

My mother and I have been talking about this lately and I've come to the conclusion that I do, indeed, want to be cremated. But not just that, (I think I've wanted that every since I realized that I wasn’t going to live forever...) now I'm going into specifics:

1) I want my ashes put into the gaudiest tin can available. (Do not spend a penny more than is totally necessary, or I swear to God I will come back and haunt you!)

2) I want that tin can along with a photo/story album showing some of the stupidest crap I've done in my life to go to my Mother. After her, I want it to be passed around from relative to relative and maybe even to friends. My main message being that even though you’re a dork, you can still live a happy life. I don’t want the people I love (or would have loved,) to ever feel like they have to sacrifice happiness for acceptance.

And finally, 3) I want all my worldly possessions to go to my "family". I’ll not specify what I mean by "family", let’s just say that all my shit goes to whoever can nab it first... But I want it video taped :o) (I'd like to think that it would some day make it to America’s Funniest Home Videos, but hey, I could really care less... Because hello! I’ll be dead! I just like the thought that the video will be circulating out there somewhere after I’m gone...)

Yeah. I think that about does it. Can you guys think of anything else I can add to this list to make it more fun?

Monday, June 20, 2005

How Original...

Nevermore did an interesting post recently and while, I’m not sure if this how he meant it, just the words got me to thinking again about one of my old issues: "they believe that whatever they're thinking actually reflects original thought."

Well, I was a kid once too, and actually thought the same thing. I’ve grown up since then and let me tell you, finding out that it’s not true can be very daunting! And how you find out can be just as bad, if not traumatic. (I remember toying with the idea that "God" might be an alien. My friends and I would talk about it and consider the possibilities... And then I found out that there’s an entire religion based on the assumption! What a bunch of freaks! I mean, here we were just talking about it and thinking that we may have stumbled onto a new idea, and here it was already a faith based religion.)

Anyway, that was when I started to realize that maybe, just maybe, there are no more original thoughts. It’s entirely possible, especially if you consider the "100 monkeys on a 100 typewriters, for a 100 years" factor. Eventually, one of them is going to turn out the works of Shakespeare. This world has been around a while, and there’s been a lot of people passing through it, isn’t it possible that there are no more thoughts out there that haven’t been documented at least a couple of times? My guess is that this one has been... And it’s probably has been about a billion times!

So why do I bring this up? Well, it’s probably because it’s an interesting subject to me that I haven’t found the answers to yet. It insinuates that we want to be original, otherwise we wouldn’t think twice about it. At the same time, it also helps you to feel that you’re not alone in the world. That there are other people out there that understand. While these two thoughts are total opposites, they’re both equally important to our mental well being. I find it fascinating!

(PS: There is more to this -like the importance of recycling good ideas,- but I’ll cut it short for now...)

Saturday, June 18, 2005

I Love My New Ossba!

Yep! I took it down. I don't want to run the risk of looking like a dork on the new obja...

Thank you guys for making me feel so paranoid about this! :p


Sometimes, I reeeeally hate computers. Or maybe I just hate the people who make computer viruses. (And for those of you that don't know very well, I do not use the "h" word lightly, but in this case...)

I just had to reformat my entire computer because some jackass went on a power trip and thought it would be humorous to cause me (and I'm sure thousands of others) some grief. What's up with that??? Did you have a bad childhood? Did someone call you a computer geek and you felt the need to prove it? Get over yourself already! Life's a bitch. We all have to deal with it. Quit Taking Your Frustrations Out On Everyone Else!

I just lost everything! Well, everything I didn't save to disc (programs, music, personal stuff like that.) But that's still a lot, because I move around and save sites to my favorites a LOT... And I have a very bad memory :o( Thank goodness for my blog and website, otherwise I would be really irate! Still, it's a pain to have to load everything back in...

Are you happy with yourself???

And you, Mr Norton Antivirus! What the hell? I pay you hundreds of dollars and you can't even protect me from a simple bug? The medical profession has a better track record! You should be ashamed of yourself!

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

When I first heard of this, I swear, I thought it was a joke! But nope, dude really thinks he can turn a gay man straight, lol... Guess he hasn't talked to the millions of women who thought the same way.

Monday, June 13, 2005

On the Tails of that last Blog...

You know, I got to thinking about this a little more, and what you guys are saying...

Personally, I think that people are basically good hearted. They don't intentionally hurt someone unless they've been hurt, or are having a bad day, or whatever. Thing is, if a person could actually see the impact they have one others, how would they respond? Would they understand the hurt that they've caused? Would they be happy that they've been able to spread a little cheer? How much of either is simply for self empowerment?

And with a persons intentions clearly shown, how would we deal with them?

Saturday, June 11, 2005

What a Concept! (Old, but New)

What if, suddenly, all the mask we wear were lifted? What if we could see each other for who we truly are? With all our hopes and dreams and fears exposed? What if, every time we criticized someone else, our own faces lit up with our own insecurities? Without the need to express ourselves, would we crumble under the pressure of who we are, or would we revel in the newborn freedom?

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Neo-Nerd Time!

Being a SCUBA diver and having a deep curiosity of the ocean, I think I've found a new hero in Graham Hawkes (mentioned in my previous post.) By designing the Deep Flight Aviator, Hawkes’ technology has made much of the ocean floor accessible to the rest of us, and by continuing his research, we get the chance to learn more and more about the deeper regions of the ocean. He currently holds the record for the deepest solo dive (3,000 feet!) and is working on a submersible that will reach "the deepest point on the planet, The Mariana Trench, which lies at 37,000 feet beneath the ocean's surface." You can read his story on his website.

Even if it’s not true hero worship yet, his work definitely fascinates me and I plan to keep an eye on him. I just wish I could afford one of those $15,000. pilot classes!

The Bermuda Triangle!

Every since I first starting hearing stories about the Bermuda Triangle, I've been fascinated by the mysteries that surround it. I've read a number of books and try to see all the documentaries about it, but none of them seem to peg it quite like the most recent Discovery Channel's documentary "Dive to Bermuda Triangle."

In ‘91, Graham Hawkes photographed 5 Avengers on the ocean floor in the BT thought to be the missing Flight 19, but because of the grainy photos, they were unable to make a positive ID. Recently, after designing his Deep Flight submersible, he was able to go back to the site in person and was able to prove that the planes were indeed, not those of Flight 19, but of other Avengers that have been ditched in the same spot, at different times. Instead of dispelling the myth (as was his intention,) he created a new mystery... Until now!

Rather than trying to come up with some supernatural or super stupid reason for why so many have been lost in the BT, scientist and experts have conducted a few tests and have came up with a very plausible theory; methane gas bubbles.

They have determined that a lot of the losses where caused by simple human error and/or torturous weather (as is now thought to be the case with the missing Flight 19,) but what of the unexplainable mysteries like the cargo ship Sulpher Queen which disappeared on calm seas in ’63 without a word, or the five Avengers found in the same location that turned out not to be those of Flight 19?

There is proof of a large methane gas deposit on the ocean floor in the Bermuda Triangle, and the theory is that under the right conditions, it can sink ships and disable aircraft. It seems completely logical, yet still surreal.

It's like science fiction meeting science, meeting reality, meeting science fiction again!

The gas bubbles up to the surface and if a ship happens to pass through it, the loss of buoyancy can cause a ship to sink (which would also explain the randomness of disappearances.) And while some experts say that the bubbles are not enough to actually sink a ship, they agree that an underwater landslide (common in the area) could release enough bubbles, or a large enough bubble to sink a loaded freighter, much like the oil platform that nearly sunk in ’85 after puncturing a similar gas pocket.

Furthermore, they ran test and showed that the gas released into the atmosphere after such an eruption could be critically damaging to planes passing by. If enough gas were released, it could stall an engine, (which was what brought down at least 2 of the 5 Avengers found.) At the very least, the gas (being lighter than air) would cause a plane to lose altitude, while the plane’s instrument panel shows that they are ascending. In bad weather, with no clear focal point, the pilot would have no way of knowing that by correcting his altitude, he’s actually heading straight into the ocean!

In short, this particular train of thought shows that the missing ships and planes didn’t just disappear, they’re still there at the bottom of the ocean. It’s just a matter of finding them!

Insomnia Woes

Hey guys! I appreciate the tips and tricks you gave me for combating insomnia (especially the "get laid" one, which you know damn well I can’t do unless I go pick up a Middletown scag somewhere!) But honestly, I think I’ve tried just about every trick in the book, and probably quite a few that aren’t.

I’ve had insomnia most of my life and I imagine it comes from having a poor sleep habit. For the most part, I don’t even try to combat it, because I relish it. I’ve done some of my best paintings and writings while in the grip of insomnia! So, as much as I hate to admit it, it probably serves me right when I need the sleep and can’t get it.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Insomnia Continues...

It is now Sat at 4:30pm and I haven't had but maybe 5 hours (in half hour/hour increments) of sleep since my last post (or since 10am on Thur.) I'm feeling clever as hell, but I have no idea of how to express it.

Seeing how I've tried every trick in my book, I can't help but to think that this latest bout of insomnia comes from a lack of good dream material...

More later!

When I can think straight.

Friday, June 03, 2005

Insomnia Sucks!

So here I am, it's 4:30am and I have to get ready for work in less than two hours... God! Somebody just shoot me, please!